are you inuit?

i was just told quite possibly the nicest thing anyone could say to me.
ever.

"you should've been born in alaska or native american.
that way you could've been one of those healers. you're good at it.
you've healed wounds i didn't even know i had."

now, if i'm not mistaken, that's pretty damn amazing.
if you've read the post before this, you know what i want to do.
but, that's the main purpose behind what i want to do.
i want to heal the wounds you can't see.
that's it.
that's the only way, i believe, i can leave this place a little bit better than when i left it.

if you are the wonderful person who said this to me, THANK YOU.
i'm not sure if you are aware of how much of an impact that had on me. so thanks. and i love you.

seriously heartgasm worthy. :D

caring without so many atrocities.

college psychologist.

college counselor.

counseling service.

whatever you want to call it.

it's not a psychiatrist. i have serious issues with prescribing medication to reverse a "problem".

i don't even really think there are problems. at least, not in that sense. the kids i want to deal with are those who have gotten in over their heads or something has happened and aren't sure how to handle it.

i could easily get kids[why am i calling them kids?] people who've been through serious things i can't handle before, but they've been through it, as in...not exactly past it, but not in need of services i can't provide.

the entire reason i can't do full on therapy is that i cannot handle that.

it is inborn that i honestly care about people. sometimes this has downsides. however, i don't think i would want to do it at all if i didn't care.

i care, therefore i am emotionally invested.

if i'm dealing with the problems of these people, they will pretty much become my problems. that's just the way i am. can't help it.

i cannot do that.

i will literally go insane and need a therapist of my own if i see the glass half empty with a hole in the bottom(i <3>

if i have a person who needs plain out therapy, they are in the wrong place.

i talk to the girl who's behind on exams because her father is in the hospital.

i don't think you come in, we talk about your issues, and i fill out a little form to give you drugs to "fix" you.

admittedly, there are situations when prescriptions are necessary. 

i believe in you come in, we talk about your issues and we keep talking about it. we talk through and decipher....why.

in my mind, it's a much more satisfactory way of changing someone's perspective.

i don't want to tell you what's wrong with you.

there isn't anything wrong with you or your personality.

there is no right and wrong when it comes to personality. there's some weird and some off but there isn't any wrong. unless, i suppose, you're posing a danger to people.

you tell me what has you down, stressed out, whatever.

even things like ADD, some people see that as a problem that needs to be corrected.

i see that as a part of who you are, which may or may not cause you trouble. if you need medication to pass classes, that's fine, but you shouldn't be made to think there is anything intrinsically wrong with you.

i talk to the kid who has panic attacks in the middle of class.

mostly i hope to show you that you're okay. nothing is wrong. this too, shall pass.

which, sometimes, i try to do already.